Have you ever
ask your self what would be your last words here on earth? Some would want to
express it an exquisite way, like text messages, cards, or some fancy facebook
status. Above these, the most common way is a SUICIDAL NOTE. They say we should
live life as if it was our last. So aside from enjoying every moment we have,
it might also be better to document farewell happiness through essays.
I
am writing this letter to express how much happiness i had received from my
birth up to this confusing moment. Life is supposed to be enjoyed, it has to be
lived FULLY. Despite the facts that problems arises, the choice to become happy
and grateful is always present. But what if those choices are blurred? What if
your caught up in a moment where nothing came, no one reached out, not a single
part of the family ask HOW I AM TODAY. Problems are supposed to be expressed to
some thoughtful individuals, but what if they are not there, what if they have
some problems to attend to, what if they choose not to say something because
its not their duty to solve your silly dilemma. Anyways, I am not blaming them
for these things because in the first place i am responsible for what is
happening to my life now. I am not angry nor devastated by them. Its not their
fault.
To
the person who will be reading this note, I am happy to know you gave some time
to read this not-so-well-constructed essay. I want you to know how thankful i
am. To my family, who will be continuing their lives without me, don’t worry
please. It will not give any significant change. I am sorry for the big
investments Ma, Tay, ug sa akong mga igsoon. You gave everything u could, from
sweat to money. From time to sacrifices. Lending money for me to finish my
studies, to run for about a kilometer just to buy foods to satisfy my needs.
For sacrificing ur individual wants to incur my necessities. For providing me
a peaceful environment back home, a shelter full of comfort and clothing duly
washed for me to wear adequate neatness. Ma, tay, I know you dont always buy clothes, and i promised myself to
buy you those when i get paid but i ask forgiveness for i cant make that moment
to happen. I am so sorry. Ur son is so weak. Ur son is unwell. Sorry also that
our dream house will not be built anymore because i wasted your investments.
But i am happy atleast we already have a car. I hope our family will stay
longer and better. I am praying that the love on each other would last.
To
my friends,neighbors, true friends, twin sister, co-league, best friends,
classmates, lover, you know who you are. I am so happy successes are starting
to build up on your paths. I am so proud
you reached this part of your lives where you chose to live and continue
everything you had started. I am so proud. I know someday you will forget i existed
but i want you to know that i am the proudest friend here on your achievements.
My family knows that. I always share how you’re going through every big leap
you’re taking. I am so sorry for the burdens and confusions i made. For the
troubles i caused, for the pain i installed in your hearts. Forgive me please.
I am just so weak. I am just so incompetent. Our togetherness may not be
perfect, but i am one of the happiest and thankful person that our paths had
intersected. You became a big part of my life. You made me learn what school
could not teach, u made me feel strong for i know some of you chose to be part
of me. So long everyone, i hope to see again. Again, none of this is your
fault. Noe of this is caused by you. I just want to express a sense of
gratitude even from my last intellectual essay.
HAPPINESS
is indeed a choice. Search from within. Thank you for this Life Lord. Thanks for this moment.
